Sunday, February 26, 2012

Love is emotional

Aloha all... 
This week has been a roller coaster of emotions. It seems like there is a lot going on in the various realms of my life.

 Home and personal life have taken center stage lately.  Last Friday, H and I began revisiting the idea of adoption and building our family. This is not a new conversation, but it resurfaced (seemingly suddenly) because of a deeply personal situation involving dear family and friends. It's been an emotional (and at times, heartbreaking)  discussion to say the least, and our minds have been baby focused ever since.

Monday started off strong and optimistic. I woke up to Whitney Houston in my ear and a gorgeous blanket of snow covering Mauna Kea and was inspired to get out for a morning run. The soundtrack of the day was "When you Believe". I was fueled by the idea of miracles.
Snow on Mauna Kea... a Monday in February
Tuesday was a mixed bag, catching up on paperwork for my job, and still trying to balance my emotions on the whole baby conversation, while maintaining healthy habits. (Eating well, exercise, meditation, kindness to others, all that good stuff.) 
Efforts at being healthy: fried egg with fresh island salsa.
Wednesday was a long drive (120 miles) for work and making more efforts to trust my intuition and do what I think is right, even if it goes against the grain.  Some days it hits me, how far removed LOVE is in the realm of social services.  That's just not right. What's life for, if not to give of ourselves to make this world a better place? 
Wednesday's napping kitty

Thursday was more discussion about choices. There's a sense that we're living a life that's too small. That we're here to do something bigger, to do more with what we've been given. Something I admire about H is her generous spirit. She gives to give, not for the purpose of getting something in return. And she doesn't give when she's not inspired. Unlike many people who are conditioned to be "people pleasers". If H is giving you her time and attention, it's genuinely coming from a place of love. Good values for raising children... don't you think? 

We were too busy to do much meal planning, so we threw a dinner together.
Salad with hard boiled eggs, feta, pepperocinis and bacon wrapped scallops. Nom Nom Nom!! 
On Friday, we celebrated Christy's 60th birthday with a small gathering. We had kalua pork, spinach and rice, taro bread, and a salad, followed by chantilly cake and haupia ice cream. 
Friends since elementary school. Auntie Di has been lifting heavy weights,
so picking up the Birthday Princess was nuthin.  ;)
Friday night with family and friends was a totally appropriate way to wrap up the week. H couldn't help herself and began talking with our aunties about the adoption discussion, and the possibility of going through foster care licensure in the meantime.  Which led to more discussion about what that entails.... to be continued.

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